Wanting to awaken is essential, because if you don’t have that wanting to do it, then this awakening can be just an idea. And like any idea, it just passes, and new ideas take its place. Inside some is the drive to awaken, which expresses itself though the conscience. As a person goes through life, something tells them that they should be searching, looking for the awakening, and that their whole way of life should be put towards it. But usually that feeling, which comes from the essence, which receives its emanations from the Being, is neglected, is not listened to. And then it’s lost, and in its place is sleep, psychological sleep.
And that is the affliction of all of humanity—humanity thinks it’s awake, but this wakefulness is really a kind of sleep, a sleep in perception, a sleep in consciousness. And the essence, the consciousness, is pushing underneath to try to get each one to awaken. And there we have a life that is wisely led, if we follow that conscience and yearning to awaken. If you don’t follow it, then your life passes in time, just like every creature on the earth. Everything passes, changes, decays; and yet, this yearning is pushing to awaken. The important thing is to make use of that yearning and conscience, and to use it to wake up.
Being asleep, humanity lives in a kind of a daydream—without seeing the world fully, seeing it only partially and through images and feelings. But this is not truly being alive. It is being like dead people, because dead people exist without the impressions of the three-dimensional world. To be alive, the dead come into a body. Even with a body they live dreaming, which is the dream of death, so they still are as dead people. When a person perceives life, the three-dimensional world and is self-aware, they wake up to being alive, but don’t yet truly live until resurrection. When in the daydream, the sleep of consciousness, they are as the dead, passing time until they return to where they came from.
To awaken, you must want to do it. And then, you must convert that wanting into a remembrance. The remembrance is the connection with the Being. It’s the remembrance which gets the mind active. Having the mind active, you can think about waking up, but you have to passionately want to awaken to have that remembrance. And not everyone has it; the majority of people prefer to sleep. And it’s better to leave them in their sleep, because everyone justifies the sleep—it’s perfectly normal, perfectly natural to live in sleep. But to wake up is a revolution in consciousness, to wake up is to break free of nature, to wake up is to rise and unite with the spirit, and nature doesn’t do that for us. So the remembrance connects us with the Being within, and through the conscience, that Being connects with us, and our minds can be filled with the thoughts of awakening, rather than the thoughts of sleep, and darkness, and rubbish, and frivolity, the frivolity which just passes time. The Being tries to get its essence to awaken, but it’s down to the free will of the individual as to whether that’s taken up or not. Each person has a limited amount of free will that’s not much. In the sleep there’s not much free will, even though each person thinks they have a degree of free will, that free will is extremely limited. As a person frees themselves from nature, they free themselves from its laws, and gain free will in its truest sense.
The little amount of will power that exists, can be used to put to awakening. And that takes effort—for that you have to go against yourself, and against nature, and all the seductive pleasures of the ego, the pleasures and pain, because the pain of the ego is also a pleasure in itself, and the sickly pleasure of the sleep— you have to go against all of that to be able to awaken, and the effort is essential. Without an effort, which is the action of the Being, or the essence, then, that essence is passive—it has nothing to activate it apart from the conscience which pushes. So through remembrance the consciousness can be activated, by making that effort to be aware.
In daily life, it’s so easy to lose it; it’s so easy to fall into sleep. And that’s a problem, because if someone wants to awaken, they need to do it in daily life, in every action, in every event, in everything which takes place. To awaken is not to sleep. An idea of awakening is not awakening, it’s simply an idea; it’s not the real thing. The real thing happens in our lives, it’s how we live them from moment to moment, in how we interact with people that we meet throughout the day. And if you do all that in a state of sleep, then that is your world, and at night, that world continues. It’s the world of the dead. And, if you do that, you live without really knowing what it is to be alive.
To be alive is to feel the Being within, to feel its emanations, its perfume, its beauty. The sleep is taken as life, but it’s not really. You have a treasure that you can find. If you’re aware, you’ll get the basic grasp of it, a basic thing which you feel. This is the treasure to hold on to. It’s a tiny thing in the beginning, but as you develop it, and as you unite with divinity, that treasure increases, it changes in its intensity, and it becomes more beautiful. And then, it’s a treasure which you would never sell your soul for, it’s a treasure that the world has no value in comparison to, it’s a treasure that belongs to you, is part of you, one which if it unites with you would never leave you, if you get to that. And you have the chance to begin the journey, if you’re starting out, to find that treasure within and then to develop it. And then to show others how to get it too, it’s a great opportunity, because those that have felt this gift inside know that it is something very valuable. And if you have something valuable, wouldn’t you want to share it with others? And if you can’t share it, as we can’t share what is within us, you can at least give others the opportunity to find their own treasure within themselves. This is much better than living an ordinary, mundane life. This is a very serious thing. This is the purpose of life—it’s not just to be born and grow, reproduce and die—it’s to find this treasure, to awaken, to get out of the spell of nature and the sleep of death.
It’s difficult to get to this treasure. There are sacrifices to be made in order to get even to the first stages of it. It doesn’t come without sacrifice, suffering and effort. A person has to be willing to make those sacrifices, to put aside greed, anger, violence, hatred, depression, worries, and so on, to go through the trials of life that the path puts, if they want to find that precious pearl within. If the goal is not clear for you, then work within to find the spark of life, work within to see what it is to be aware, to feel the essence within, and then you’ll realize that it’s so important, it’s something that you cannot buy, that you can’t exchange a gift, or a car, or a house, or friendship, or anything for it.
No one can give you that which you can find within yourself. No one can give you a spiritual gift that comes from divinity.
Q: People don’t understand what we are talking about.
If someone doesn’t understand, they should practice, and carry out the exercises until they feel what it is to be awake and to feel spiritual emanations. There are exercises that can be done to utilize the drive of the essence to wake up.
One thing I notice is that there’s a lot of people out there say that it’s very easy to be enlightened, and you just have to accept yourself and then suddenly you’ll be enlightened. And that’s certainly much more attractive than the things you talk about, the difficult tests and trials and such.
Most people are not particularly interested in following the spark of the essence right through to its awakening, and they want easy things, rather than going through the difficulties that awakening brings. And for those people, well, if they know of this work and they leave it alone, then leave them to it—let them be content in their sleep, let them be comfortable in their illusion, thinking that they know what the awakening is. So, they will just sleep and pass their life in sleep, dreaming about awakening, without realizing that their fantasy enlightenment is just another dream. Leave them alone, and let them sleep in their own way, without getting them agitated.
Belsebuub in Oregon, USA in 2009
