A talk by Belsebuub California, January 2008
Human beings are forms of animals with an intellect and with all the different animal drives, which at certain times in life, kick in. When puberty starts, the sexual drive appears, and eventually most reproduce, bring up offspring, and die, and this whole process just goes on and on and on. And, no matter how brilliant, or bad or whatever a person thinks of themselves, as part of humanity they stay in this process, it just repeats and a new generation comes up all the time. So, everyone begins the journey of life as creatures, people that are part of the program of nature.
However, when someone begins to observe themselves, they begin to see that program, and that is a fundamental step away from the animal kingdom, because an animal can’t see itself; it can’t realize the state that it’s in. Whereas human beings have the tools, which animals don’t, to be able to see what’s going on inside. With this inner observation, someone can see themselves as they are, then they can change it, and, can stop being so animalistic; can stop being so brutal, greedy, selfish, and all that – because the animal instincts are at the root of it all. No matter how much anyone thinks that they should change the government or society, it won’t fundamentally change unless the individuals within it change, because society is really the product of the individuals within it. If individuals change, then the external world and life changes too.
But it takes more than simple observation in order to change spiritually – it also requires the transformation of energies with Alchemy. No one can really transform themselves simply by meditating, or studying, or concentrating; it doesn’t work, there is no creative process in there. To fundamentally change, the creative Alchemical process is necessary and that is done through sex. This process is mentioned in different religions of the world, but it’s given symbolic names. With this process, a person transforms what they are into something spiritual, by building the parts, building the bodies in the different dimensions, which then allow the spiritual, the divine, to be incarnated within.
Picture the Being, which leaves creation, a little part of this Being comes into the earth and the three-dimensional world and enters its evolution. This part we call consciousness, or essence. This consciousness, then, evolves and becomes ever-more complex, until it reaches a state of a human. When it reaches that state, it has the ability to transform itself by re-uniting with its Being. Or, it just carries on being like an animal, and stays within the world of animals. Without someone awakening, the rest of the Being is in spiritual dimensions, as someone goes through the process of awakening that Being gets incarnated stage-by-stage. It goes back to that consciousness and joins with it, stage-by-stage, at a stage the Christ joins with it.
So, at first there is just this bare consciousness, which has its limitations. A certain amount of inner peace can be felt with it, but it’s limited. If enough spiritual progress is made, we go through the different tests and trials of life, Alchemy changes and transforms our energies, then at a point, a part of the Being merges with us. That’s when we gain the part of the Being called the Soul. And that brings the first feelings of real peace. It’s in its most basic form, but it feels something like you can feel or perceive when you see a baby just sleeping, or just awaking from sleep – you have a gentle peacefulness. That’s the first thing that’s normally felt when the Soul is incarnated. If you continue, you can incarnate the Spirit – that gives a greater feeling of peace. If you continue even further, then you can incarnate more spiritual principles. The more that is incarnated, the greater then are the spiritual feelings that we have: the capacity for love, the capacity for inner peace, and so on.
Only when the Being is incarnated can you really feel inner peace. Before then, you have just an incipient hint of it, because what dominates you, are the animal drives, and they’re not peaceful. Peace can be imagined, emotions evoked, or words spoken, but that’s not it. When the real thing arrives, you don’t have to think about it. You can be thinking about something completely different, and when it arrives it’s there, and it becomes part of you, just as an emotion becomes part of you – except that peace at that stage is permanent, and it’s merged with your consciousness.
In the beginning, the animal drives take its power away. So, if you feel some anger or emotion, it can take away those emanations of peace of the Being. But as you progress, and more of the Being is incarnated, more spiritual parts are incarnated, then, it gets stronger and stronger. And then it’s felt not only as a spiritual presence which stays, but as an overwhelming power, which takes over the five senses and transforms them. And in that state, you feel bliss and ecstasy just being alive.
But, it’s not permanently strong at that stage – because the drives can still exist. But as you go on from there, you make that permanent within you; then, it becomes a continuous state. That’s when someone has reached the Absolute, the source. That’s when all of the parts of the Being, which came out from creation, are within the human being. And that’s when you merge with the Divine, and return to the Absolute.
This is a long process, and many, many people can talk and say they know about spiritual things, and say they’ve felt peace, and so on, but unless someone has the Being incarnated, they have no idea of what real peace is about. It’s something quite different to what anyone imagines, because no one, unless they have the Being, has experienced it.
Imagination comes from human experience. True peace is beyond the capacity of ordinary human experience, and therefore, it’s beyond the imagination. People are being misled, but I’m putting things as they are, so that people can understand what is needed to done in order to reach true spirituality. Not as something imagined, but something that’s real and actually takes place as an inner transformation within.
Q: It still seems to be that as you move along, there will be parts that you don’t understand or parts that you have to figure out for yourself, that can’t be simply explained – is that right?
Belsebuub: There are always things beyond personal experience; but you have to know what you have experienced and be able to stand on that – that is your foundation, that’s the basis. The information only leads to personal search. What we know about the esoteric, or about spirituality, is exactly what we’ve experienced. You must be able to differentiate between the two, so that spirituality doesn’t become another fantasy world.
If you are aware of what’s real, of what you have experienced, then you can stand on that, because that’s really what your life is – what you experience of it. At death, you go with your own inner life; no one else who is alive here is around you to go through it with you. And you have to take with you what you have done with it, what you have been able to create within yourself through the esoteric work. However large or small, that is what prepares you for death, that’s what you take with you beyond death: what you’ve done, what you’ve experienced, and what you are.
So it makes sense to gain experience, to change what you are, to create the spiritual within and to awaken, so that you have the things within you which give life after death, and you can die knowing where you are going. Those who walk the esoteric path fundamentally change the fate of where they go after death.
